Day 57 (4): Felt Outcasted

It's my fourth day leaving my homeland, and that's quite a bitter experience. Yes, there are some fun stuff here but I don't feel myself belonging to any group of people.

My advanced diploma group people may be here, studying and eating together, but I just don't feel that I am part of them. You can say there's David and TongSeng but somehow the bond is not that strong as compared to those bros from secondary school or my diploma years.

Tried to join one group, then another, but just doesn't seems to fit in. I have the feeling that I am just an outsider and my presence maybe an liability to their group status quo and stability. I do feel that even if they say no.

Now I am writing this post at 6PM because I don't fit anywhere except with the friends I had in Malaysia, who all can only contact me over the line. Nevertheless, this diary post will be posted just before the day ends.

I do no intend to offend anyone, just expressing my feelings solely based on my perspective. Just feel that I am an outcast. I will try harder to fit myself into somewhere. T.T

Forget those feeling stuff. My day is as usual, wake up early and be the first in the lobby. Gone to class and the lecture is some sort of repeating what we learn, yet again. Then we had a 5 hours break, that's when I felt being an outcast.

Gone back to class, we have this lady tutor, Alex, who I label as more of a street smart lady. Quite many times the class gone totally silent. Awkward. =.=

Going to finish this passage soon as I am going for dinner with David and TongSeng (maybe even more people). Sigh, maybe that's my group after all, the whole group.