Day 80 (27): Almost

After some advices from a friend yesterday night, a free day today had made me thought much about where I am heading right now in my feelings stuff. And crazy me almost did something stupid that may ruin everything nice that happened between us.

The letter was written but as when I wanted to send out to her, she was not there in front of her monitor. I am glad that was the case, as god knows what will happen had I message it out. I would be a selfish jerk had that message reached her. I like her and would not want to hurt her like that. Let me go through those suffering stuff myself, she doesn't deserve it.

Other than the few slashes on my heart, I did some cooking today. What I cooked today was some quite simple ones as I had no knifes and chopping board to use. I did a steam chicken with garlic and chili and complemented it with fried egg and white rice. The gravy of the chicken was just awesome. Four more drumsticks for me to cook that. ^^



Tomorrow I will be in Whitby and I think I should sleep well tonight to enjoy the burning sun at the beach. I will be joining some others girls, trying to distract myself from her. I seriously unable to be only friends with her. Others may see it doable but not for me. T.T Hopefully I can enjoy my day with the girls.